I am scared, we are all so scared of being fragile, displaying this to the world , displaying my emotions my inner being, a thing i would have never imagined before. I feel alone in my changed being, an amazing change that has made my life ever more better, to discover the world that God created, stronger connection with God with my soul, my body, my thoughts, he is real, non believers, catholics, christians, muslims, buddhists, every religion he is real, he changed my life in a way not even fathomable, he is real I found him, i always knew he existed something great, grand , bigger than us ignorant un perfect humans, there had to be someone great to have created childbirth, a priceless moment for new parents, the beauty of the world italy, sardegna, arizona california, iran, afghanistan, everywhere beaches, laughter, yes i am humand and fear that when i die and if i dont find him or we dont find who this God is i will be disappointed, but the major part of my being hopes, knows he has to be out there. God please prove me right! I want to write, to at least someone who couldnt express this feeling of being changed, that you are not alone, its okay to show weakness, we are human, and express the drastic change in life!
I am going to doing something Revolutionary today!
I am going to do things that i have never done before, defend myself, express myself, explain myself, and hurt people feeling good about it, you wouldnt understand, the truth hurts, by hurting people i mean verbally telling them the truth, how they hurt me, do something for me, with courage and with God by my side.
but hipocrasy i know, i hate hypocrasy with a burning passion, so do you , i hate how people hurt others, but this a hurt that i must do for me, to better me, i cant explain it not even to myself. i am a hyprocrit, human, liar, sinner, selfish, ask yourself arent we all?
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