Dear Fonni...

I want to write you a letter to say I am sorry if I said anything offensive of your town , your people, non of you did me wrong, unfortuantely I have to write this letter because I need to tell you guys that I dont remember the things I said, and If I said something that I meant in a different way , but you interpreted it different. Fonni, I thank you honestly from the bottom of my heart! You guys taught me so many things, you guys changed my life! You are all good people , you guys have great hearts, great families, you guys saved me from my depression! I suffered something as a human, and you guys saved me! If I said something bad about your town I am sorry, I might have been mad, and when you are depressed you are definitely blind, everything makes you mad, everything is ugly, there is no color, no laughter, no happiness. . . . I suffered internally with things , and my suffrage I am sorry , but I portrayed to you guys. I didnt change families or leave Fonni, because I hated it there, but I did it for my own good. Unfortunately I did something horrible, but it something that I had to do to me, to rescue myself, all the people I harmed , I am sorry from the bottom of my heart, I understand if you cant forgive me I did you wrong, and the bruise I left could take years to heal. Host family, I would like to thank you for everything you did for me, all the good things, all the things you gave me, all the things I learned from you! I honestly appreciate all the things that you did for me. People my host family isnt cattiva, they are amazing people, with great hearts! I am very fortunate to have met you guys, and you guys will forevermore be in my heart, in my prayers. This blog is to show the world the things I suffered, but host family you didnt make me suffer, It was a battle within myself, I wrote the horrible thing that i did, because it changed my life forever more.... I want to look back at this blog 10 years from now, and to see how I was now, how much I learned, how i felt in that very moment in my life. I want future afs students to read this blog, to feel that they are not alone, because I know when I read a blog of peoples sufferings and their accomplishments, it makes me feel better and I know that I am not alone! Fonni you will always have a space in my heart, and the people, and the host family! It was a pleasure meeting you fonni :)